So you all know I’m dating. Well, the most recent attempt at dating really tested how much I learned about myself and my negative behaviors with my ex. The guy was very sexual in our initial conversation, but it was more question asking than anything overtly offensive. Then when we met, he was super touchy-feely. I liked him as a person, but I felt like I was on a date with an octopus. He asked me out on a second date and I figured I’d give him a second chance, set some hard and fast boundaries about the physical stuff and his response would tell me all I needed to know. We never made it to a second date. He made it pretty clear that all he wanted was sex on the second date. He tried to clean it up, but bottom line was, “If you don’t plan to put out, don’t bother coming to see me.” When I called him on his BS he tried to turn it around on me and blame me and my attitude for how he responded. I cut him off with the quickness. His response and my instincts told me everything I needed to know. I told him I didn’t want to see him for a second date or ever again.
Despite the fact I handled it well in the end, I’ll admit I had a moment of weakness when he turned things around on me where I almost wasted time defending myself and arguing with him instead of just saying “Go away”. Choosing to argue and defend myself is how I got in that mess with my ex. Letting someone get in my head and make me feel weaker in my stance on something. Thankfully the voice that tells me I’m right gets stronger everyday. I look forward to the day that I don’t have a second thought and I just do what needs to be done right out.
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